i've been microdosing 🍄 again & it's one of the best things i've ever done

plant medicine Jordan is unlocked again guys & we need to discuss

i started microdosing mushrooms again recently, like a veryyyy tiny amount, barely enough to feel the full psychedelic effects but just enough for the world to be more colorful and for the edges of my imagination to be wonderfully frayed in technicolor magic again. and, well, it’s quickly and quietly become one of the best things i’ve done for myself in a long time.

but then again… not so quietly. because duh, it’s me. i have so much to say and i’m always going to spill the tea. in this case, the mushroom suppy tea. especially because my #1 asked question everywhere from instagram to here on substack lately has been: where do you get your mushrooms? what’s a truly trusted source?

and if there is ONE thing about me, it’s that i’m going to find us the purest source on the planet when it comes to plant medicine. and not just pure, but insanely high vibrational, reiki-infused, pleiadian coded, 100% organically grown under Earth Hz and God Hz frequencies, small-batch, third party lab tested, pure AF supplements created for the cycle-syncing vibes of the female nervous system. they were also created by a dear friend of mine, industry-leading root cause health practitioner.

no like, it’s insane how amazing they are. but we’ll get there. don’t worry, i’ll share links AND a discount code. but first, i want to tell you about my experience… (and if you just can’t wait, check them out here & make sure to use the discount code BLONDE!!).

my latest microdosing journey:

i didn’t plan to talk about my microdosing journey again for many reasons. it felt private at first, almost sacred—like something you tell a best friend during a cacao ceremony, not something you broadcast to the internet. but every time something genuinely helps me come back to myself, i feel this actual duty to share it once i’m ready. i don’t gatekeep what heals me. if something softens my life (and reawakens my deepest well of creativity AND realigns me with my soul’s true path, i want—no, NEED—other people to know it’s possible.

and i think most of you know that in my soul, i’m a plant medicine facilitator. one day i’ll be back to that. i’ve been through a lot with my own psychedelic awakenings, and stepped away from the medicine for a time, and coming back to it now has been nothing short of the divine timing and the divine healing my soul has deeply needed.

the funny thing is, when most people hear “microdosing mushrooms,” they imagine something intensely psychedelic or wildly dramatic. like walls melting, visions, talking to god, running barefoot through the woods. and while i absolutely loveeee me a macrodosing journey (full hero’s doing vibes), with microdosing, which is all i’m doing right now, nothing looks different. nothing feels trippy. i’m still making breakfast, packing lunches, answering emails, editing chapters, doing carpool. from the outside, my life looks exactly the same.

but internally, it’s like someone turned the volume down on the static, started to reacquaint me with the truth of my nervous system (and the truth of all things in general), AND pressed a button in my nervous system that says loud and clear: “you’re realigning with everything your soul came here to do and we are quite bluntly disconnecting you from everything you are no longer in alignment with doing.”

have you noticed? like did you see my sobbing on my podcast this week? that wasn’t a breakdown. it was a breakthrough. here’s a visual for anyone who missed it. listen to the full thing here!

that’s the best way i can describe it. before, my brain felt like i had a perpetual thirty million tabs open at once. this low hum of anxiety in the background. overthinking every decision. trying to optimize everything. trying to be better, faster, more productive, more healed, more evolved. even my healing had an edge to it, like if i just tried harder i would finally arrive somewhere. which… we all know is a myth.

microdosing hasn’t made me superhuman. it hasn’t made me wildly productive or suddenly enlightened. it’s done something much simpler and much more profound: it’s made me gentler… and beyond that, it’s made me MYSELF again.

because here’s the thing, the brain and nervous system are wired for one thing: safety. but to the nervous system, safety = what’s familiar, even if it’s chaos, stress, or scarcity. our body doesn’t care about our goals, dreams or aspirations because it’s addicted to the familiarity of pain, scarcity, and survival. and that’s not our fault, it’s just a fact.

microdosing & the nervous system:

and after 15 years of chronic illness, 13ish years of chronically overworking myself, and my life taking a full overhaul in every way, shape, and form lately… plus a whole team of light trying to reawaken me from the other side (hello, pleiadians!!! hello, akashic records!!! hello, life changing magic in every form!!)… my nervous system has needed support to get out of fight or flight, and return to the gentle rhythm of its own internal wisdom.

true, long-lasting change only happens when we rewire at a subconscious level, and truthfully, psilocybin is the most powerful tool on earth for this. microdosing mushrooms helps you build steady CAPACITY in your nervous system day after day so that you can fully hold and integrate the changes you are making without the overwhelm. (in my case, it’s also helped me refine and get reacquainted with what those changes actually are. and as i’ve mentioned, i’ll be sharing in full ASAP because my whole life is about to do a 180!).

there’s a big misconception around microdosing, too. many people begin with large macro doses or multiple-day ayahuasca ceremonies and end up quite literally blowing a fuse in the circuitry of their nervous systems because they don’t have the capacity to integrate their experience. and how could they?!?! so many of us have not been taught. this lack of capacity is what causes destabilization with plant medicines...not the medicines themselves.

and you can trust me, because i’ve done it all. the micro, the macro, the facilitation, the sitting in ceremonies, the awakenings, the breakdowns, ALL of it.

this is why i strongly recommend beginning with all things microdose, because the changes can be integrated in real time—on a timeline that actually makes sense. so, in comes microflow, the brand i’m using and absolutely loving. once i got my hands on these pleiaidan coded slices of magic… i couldn’t not partner with them to share more and tell you guys everything. i am so grateful they exist.

psylocibin is an illuminator: it optimizes mood, cognition, creativity, gratitude, presence, unconditional love, and illuminates all the “feel good” feelings...but it also illuminates the shadows... it brings unconscious patterns and shadow material into awareness for healing and alchemy.

the definition of illumination = making the unconscious, conscious & bringing the shadow to light, which is the greatest gift of all because we can’t heal what we are unaware of. and i have been doing that deeper work right now more than ever imaginable.

a little bit more about microflow specifically:

• microdosing mushrooms is not an escape...it is confrontation with truth (fears, grief, and unprocessed emotions) so that true liberation can begin

• MicroFlow is one of the most effective tools for resourcing the nervous system and expanding capacity. nervous system capacity = wealth capacity = off the charts abundance & then some

• a microdose is sub-perceptual: you do not feel altered or “high.” It is safe for everyday use & life (work, parenting, driving, moms!). most people feel more clear, connected, focused, and in flow. it’s 1/30th to 1/50th of a journey dose.

• microdosing can support anxiety, depression, ADHD, PTSD, eating disorders, PMS, PMDD, postpartum challenges, menopause, cognitive performance, inflammation, addiction, relationship dynamics, and so much more

• MicroFlow helps repair the nervous system, rewire the subconscious, and activate the innate capacity to create the life you desire

• Your dreams and goals live or die by one single thing: the capacity of your nervous system. healing at the root is the only way to go

• to address the SSRI + microdosing component (because many of you know that i take prozac), prozac is not a contraindication to microdosing, especially at a microdose. of course you’ll want to speak with your doctor before introducing anything new if you are on an SSRI, but i find that these two medicines work beautifully hand in hand with one another. <3

• psylocibin is a potent anti-inflammatory, so it deeply supports the anti-inflammatory journey i’m already on

**remember to use the code BLONDE for $10 off!!

they have surrender, exude, and theta. i love taking 1 surrender per day in my luteal & menstrual, and 1 exude per day in my follicular and ovulatory phases. theta is a deeper dive that takes you into the 7th dimension of consciousness and higher. theta purchases include free access to Christy’s portal of multiple 4-hour virtual Theta ceremony recordings (intention setting, shamanic breathwork, ecstatic dance, and more).

some of the benefits i’ve been experiencing:

i’ve noticed there’s more space between things happening and my reaction to them. atticus spills something and i don’t snap. an email comes in that used to send me spiraling and i just… handle it. plans change, traffic happens, something goes “wrong,” and instead of my nervous system going into full fight-or-flight, there’s this quiet steadiness. like, okay. we’re fine. we’re safe.

and as someone who has lived with chronic illness, lyme, mold illness, inflammation, panic, psychic awakening, and years of nervous system dysregulation baked into my body, that feeling is everything. because for me, healing has never really been about doing more. it’s been about convincing my body that it’s safe. safe to slow down. safe to create. safe to receive. safe to not be constantly bracing for impact.

microdosing doesn’t feel like adding something. it feels like taking something away. like setting down a weighted vest i didn’t realize i’d been carrying for years.

also, i knew it would enhance my creativity but oh my god… the LEVEL of creativity that’s been unlocked??? UNWELL. IN THE BEST WAY. not manic creative or chaotic or “write 10,000 words in a frenzy” creative (well that’s me on any given day anyway, lol). just clear. ideas feel cleaner. sentences come faster. i’m not fighting myself as much. it’s like the channel isn’t clogged anymore. my fictional world is being reborn. my book baby (the one i’m restructuring) is being totally reinvented with ease.

i sit down to write and instead of spiraling about whether it’s good enough or smart enough or original enough, the words just come. which tells me something important: the blocks were never about talent or discipline. they were about fear. and when the fear quiets, even a little, your actual voice has room to speak.

that’s what microdosing has been giving me lately. not leveling up into some shinier version of myself (okay wait that too LOL), just returning. returning to the girl i was before everything got so loud. before i felt like i had to hold everything together all the time. that’s why i’m no longer in a position to “act like everything’s okay” when it’s not.

yes at the same time, and something tells me you guys will totally get this… everything is more okay than ever. my entire life is shifting. when i spoke to Christy, the founder and creator of microflow, she told me, “the consciousness of these mushrooms won’t let you be misaligned. it will do everything in its power to bring you into alignment, and the quantum leaps that will happen from there, will take place at warp speed.”

MIC DROP.

everything i’ve ever needed.

of course, this isn’t me telling anyone what they should or shouldn’t try. i’m very much team talk to your practitioner, know your body, do your own research, listen to your intuition. nothing is one-size-fits-all, especially when it comes to nervous systems and plant medicine—you have to feel called. but i do think it’s worth questioning the idea that healing has to be harsh or punishing. what if it’s allowed to feel supportive? what if it’s allowed to feel gentle?

lately i just feel more here. more present with my kids. more connected to jonathan. more connected to myself. more inspired when i write. less reactive. less afraid of the future. less hard on myself. life is a dream again. and i know you guys see it… i KNOW it’s shining through. because, how could it not?

and my quantum leap lately!??!? the shifts, the 120,000+ growth on instagram, the manifesting of everything i’ve ever desired and then some?? it’s not happening at random. it’s happening because my nervous system finally feels safe. it’s happening because inner child Jordan is back. Jojo is her name. she’s the shit. :)

if you’ve been feeling like your system is tired, like you’re doing all the “right” things but still bracing, like life feels a little too sharp around the edges, maybe the answer isn’t pushing harder. maybe it’s finding whatever helps you soften.

for me, right now, it just happens to look like a very tiny mushroom and a very big exhale.

thank you so much to microflow for working with me to continue getting this healing magic out into the world. it is my honor to share it with you. and i’d love to answer any and all questions below. and the pleiadian guidance component, can you even!?!?!? i have no words. sooooo excited for you to explore.

♡